This is an aimless post on yet another aimless WordPress site. I kept this domain up for a couple of years some time back and, unsurprisingly, allowing the domain registration to lapse for a number of years did not result in losing it.
Unfortunately I am setting up here using WordPress hosting, so god knows who actually controls the domain. I have yet to do a whois on it, but I’m guessing I just sold my soul to GoDaddy or some other trash hosting company.
Writing anything personal once again is odd… I once felt I had a voice and was excited to share that voice with the world, being so easily done in this day and age. I enjoyed it, and even got compliments and, more importantly, insults. This was mainly in the immediate years after college, where for a time one’s mind remains in a state well suited for intellectual output. Years pass, career, fatherhood and marital responsibilities take the place of what was once a need to do more, be more, say more, etc.
This is not to say unhappiness has crept its ugly voice into my life’s narrative, as it has not, nor is it any indication that there has been a ceasing of all intellectual pursuits, which would be false. I continue to chase writers that inspire me, continue to study subjects that fascinate me, continue to find music that takes me elsewhere. In short, this is not to say anything – just rambling on a shitty blog site that barely exists.
So, given I am writing to myself here, this very well could be that I am bored at my job for the past 2 weeks due to a disastrous upgrade (Sitefinity – a Telerik product that frankly has not gotten any more stable in way of upgrades over the years) and I simply need some kind of output. People these days seem to turn to social media, for my age group (39) it is mainly Facebook, for my teenage kids it is a variety of apps and an obsession with mobile everything and oversharing. For me, these simply are not a good platform – I’m in general a social anxious person, as are many IT workers I would guess, so sharing anything of value in permanent Internet form with a group of people I know does not suit my personality. I enjoy anonymity, if such a concept exists anymore (barely).
So, here’s hoping I look back on this in 2 years, fall into self-hate after re-reading my own idiocy from the past and wonder what the hell I wasted $48 on to host a go-nowhere blog that I inevitably won’t keep up.
Current Tech Projects: Sitefinity is quite awful. ETL tools galore. Round and round we go, always ending up where we were 10 years ago.
Current Music: Lots and lots of Jazz. And the Stones. And blackgaze bands like Deafheaven. Oh, U2 as well… yes, it’s cheesy arena/ballad rock, but piss off, it’s good.
Current Movies: Black Panther was quite good. This Is Spinal Tap has aged amazingly well.
Current Books: Thomas Pynchon’s ‘The Crying of Lot 49’. It’s weird. I really liked it. I’ve started Gravity’s Rainbow but god only knows if I’ll have the patience to make it through 700+ pages of Pynchon weirdness.
My daughter is currently into Faulkner, so I’ve succeeded at least mildly as a father.